What I am to You.

I dont want to give you anything
I dont even know what can i give you
What do you want..
What do you really want from me ?
I don’t have the courage to think of you
you don’t have the heart to meet with me
so where can I go?
Even if I appear,
You would probably not be free anyway,
Besides, I might even result to you losing face
You were my Treasure,
I am your Garbage,
Even if I went missing, you would probably won't even notice
These tears are counted a blessing,
that I could tear for you,
But what I didn't understand
Why did you even stop to listen to me barking.
If I don't go now,
I might have this life,
But will not be able to enjoy it,
I am probably not close enough to make an impact,
My tears might not even mean anything,
I don't even have the guts to cry to you myself.
Now, I don't mind loneliness,
At least it is much easier than being in love with you.
So take my leaving as a blessing I give to you.

Which Road Do I Pick ?

I want to go back to the past..
I know I'm in the wrong..
Please forgive me..
Please let me make it up to you..
Dont reject me..
Dont shake your head..
I've now come to a cross road..
How many problems can one heart take..
Give me time..
Just a little bit..
I want to do everything..
and anything...
For you..
Naomi..

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education:
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

[Part 1] Self Confidence: 77% -> You're confident.
[Part 2] Sensory Perceptions: 76% -> Sensitive to stimulation around you.
[Part 3] Body Language: 73% -> Quite good at utilizing on occasions.
[Part 4] Conversational Skills: 93% -> A real talent!
[Part 5] Empathy For Others: 87% -> An extremely kind and warm person.


Do you still think of your ex:
Your ex clearly broke your heart and you haven't yet moved on. Remember that time heals all sorrows, so look positively towards the future. Don't be blinded to the love that might be surrounding you right now.

What kind of person are you:

You are a sociable and outgoing person. You enjoy attending parties and seek attention from people wherever you can. The closer you place your words together, the more afraid you are of being left alone. Loneliness is your one great fear.

Favorite place in the house:
You are imaginative and colorful. You attract people just by the way you talk. This can make some people feel jealous.

What of your life:

Here is the analysis:You are imaginative and colorful. You attract people just by the way you talk. This can make some people feel jealous.

What do you think of love:
Here is the analysis:You are imaginative and colorful. You attract people just by the way you talk. This can make some people feel jealous.

I cant believe it..

tell me I'm dreaming..

that We are still We...

it was amazing..

said I were lucky..that I finally found You...

It was on a busy day, that we met..

and i just don't know where to go..

as we just met.. so you said let's go slow..

but no..I just told you..

I'm to keep you from the cold...

sorry i cant take it..

why did you fake it..

why did we kiss...

and I'm just down..

you left me with a note without a sound..

I figured I must stop being such a child..

you never know how much I've been going round..

how my heart just rounds of your down...

Ill be your teddy bear ..

Ill be your cloud..

Ill take you round and round..

If you dont mind i can be your standing ground..

even if that means I'd drown...

Why Life ?

Why does it feel like the world is ending
why does it feel like my dreams are fading
why when hope is near it just shatters
why when i want something, it just never happens

why when we all cry, tears roll down our eyes
why when we are happy, time just flies by
why when i need something, it just goes dissapearing
why when i need someone, they just go missing

why is that in life nothing seems right
yet the weaknesses we dont see by sight
why is that when everything seems so perfect
yet the truth it is a just all an act

For to me, life itself is just not worth it
for my soul in this present life just dont fit
For i fail to see pass the dark to the light
for i fail to see from wrong to right

I'm a failure both in love and in life
so everytime i reach the peak i take a sigh
I'm just very fortunate to be this lucky
so i treasure everytime i felt happy

So now i say goodbye to the world
as i leave not even saying a word
to all the people whom fucked up my life
this is the end , in which u all like..

XoXo

Ruler of My Heart..

Jillian , the one who rules my heart,
4 years of dominating me,
Yet I still dont know where to start.

You might say i lie,
You might say i con,
But how would you know,
When you are not the one.

4 years to me is nothing but time,
But what really means to me
is what of you and I,

Loving you is my biggest wish,
Please let me love you at least,
Give me a chance for this,
So sometimes i wonder,
Who do i love deep under,
And i love you and no other..

God, please show me a sign,
for what should i do at this time,
as my heart is flooded with tears,
as my soul is conquered by fear.

i always had wonder
how is that we are together,
God is always been who i ask,
Yet our love just didnt last.

Now i have to go find myself,
Maybe have to lock myself in a cell,
All I see now is the fucking weather,
I had believed our love would had beem deeper.

Now that im leaving, what can i say ?
i want you even more everyday,
loving you more in every way,
Yet on my bed , i lay all day.

All i do is wait for your call,
For you are my all,
It almost feels like the end,
As though you are my only friend.

When i walk out the door,
I want youso much more,
You are what all my life meant,
For you are definately a God-sent.

Once Upon A Time..

Once there was a man who had an orange shirt.
Once there was a girl who went out dancing in a skirt.
Once there was a park they found they fed the frantic ducks.
Once there was a couple, happy, who couldn't believe their luck.

Once they went out dancing, and had a movie date.
Once early in the morning she surrendered to her fate.
Once he said "I love you" and she had to love him too.
Once they had a future, happy when one and one made two.

Now they are both lonely, now they live alone.
Now she has a cold and empty,tidy hollow home.
Now he has a fountain of tears where once there was a heart.
Now she has decided that they really have to part.

Now that she has nothing, she feels she is complete.
Now that he can't dance again, his heart weighs down his feet.
Now he thinks about her, all the memories locked away.
Now he tries so hard to forget the happy laughing days.

Is she thinking of him still? Does she cry still, now and then?
Is he ever going to win back the girl he loves again?
Is she glad it's over? Can she get on with her life?
Is she really so very certain she wouldn’t be his wife?

Given all the laughter, fun and sunny times they had.
Given all the heartache, lies and times he made her mad.
Given all the tears now, the loneliness and pain.
Given all the risks, would she do it all again?

Can she really say that she won't want him back one day?
Can she really like her life now better in this way?
Can she forget his face, the mess, the giggles and the love?
Can she find someone else to love her more than he could love?

If he really loved her, she said he'd let her go.
If she understood his feelings then she would know that it's not so.
If he were less stubborn, if she could care much less.
If they had never spoken, there wouldn't be this sorry mess.

But time has taken prisoners, their lives are now entwined.
But even if they never meet again, the past is not left behind.
But can he start all over? Just forget her and move on?
But even if he can, will she be glad with what she's won?

Is that really what he wants, to never see her smiling face again?
Will it make him happy, will he live on without pain?
Will he be thinking of her, is he too proud to cry?
Will it wrench his heart in two if he sees her kiss another guy?

And can she forgive his faults, and accept him as he is.
He wants to have her back and hope for nothing but forgive.
She's told him that its over, that she may never want him back.
He's told her that he loves her and though its a risk, he'll live with that.

She wants him to live with patience, to give her time to heal.
The past is not yet over and it's left a scar so real.
We don't choose who we can love, and love doesn't really die.
You can find it in your heart again, I love you, so please try..

I wish I wrote this love note
with my own blood
so you know it came straight from my heart.'

Sometimes if you love someone so much,
it will actually hurt more.
Every minute spent with her
comes with an hour of missing her.
Just when you thought
everything would be perfect,
everything falls apart..

When you put that ring on my neck,
you put a chain of death around my heart.

Ive found the Best Organ
The heart is the only broken instrument that works..

I was born
when you kissed me.
I died
when you left me.
I lived a few weeks
while you loved me.


Should I SMILE
because you?re my friend
or CRY because that is all we will ever be?
A million WORDS would not bring you back,
I know because I've TRIED.
Neither would a million TEARS,
I know because I've CRIED.

How can you be FRIENDS with SOMEONE
if EVERYTIME you LOOK at them
it makes you WANT them even MORE?
If anyone accused me of being heartless,
it?s only because you have it.

The hardest thing in life is
to watch the person you love,
love someone else.

I miss the way you laughed,
I miss the way we talked,
I miss the times we had,
I miss the love we shared,
but most of all
I miss the way you cared.

I think the nightmares in my sleep are terrifying,
and then I wake up,
and the real nightmare begins.

When you dream with a broken heart..
Waking up is the hardest part..

On nights like this, I held her in my arms.
I kissed her so many times under the infinite sky.

What does it matter that my love couldn't keep her.
The night is full of stars and she is not with me.

Although this may be the last pain she causes me,
and this may be the last poem I write for her.

ello !

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-meowww~~

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I've Been Spared Of PHYSICAL Pain.. But Not From MENTAL PAIN..

My hands are tied to An empty reflection..
As I stare at myself without your affection..
And wonder why we only see what we want to see..
For what i see now.. just isn't me..

I've lost you for now.. and ever..
Though i know when you'll come back.. never..
I've loved you so..
I just dont know how to show..
This cant go on..
It just feels so wrong..
My heart is gone..
I know this feeling..
My heart breaks..
Only when its beating..

All i want from you is simple protection..
For now i've lost you and my direction..
For everytime u don't say a word..
You show to me the world..

Grandma..
My heart is left to pieces..
Rest In Peace.


These Flowers Are For You Up Above..
Show the Angels.. How Did you Love..

Our Brother;s Bday

GENTLEMAN... LADIES
CHEOW SIANG IS THE MAIN CHARACTER TODAY..

we went to Fish and Co as it is out tradition to go there for occassions like these.. EVERYONE WAS LATE.. except our bday boy... haha.. anyway.. as usual.. went to De-Haven after that.. and all we did.. was sheesha drink and talk cock... a LOT OF COCK.. haha as usual..

FIRSTLY.. I PRESENT TO YOU.. SHEEESHAAAA

ME

THE COOL KATHERINE.. * YEAH RITE xp *
THE... TRYING TO BE HOT KEEN KING.. * NOOB SHEESHA-ER *

TRYING TO COVER HIS FACE / TRYING ACT COOL ONCE AGAIN..

FUNKY HO LEE



NOW SECONDLY.. AFTER DRINKING...

BOON YANG.. FASCINATED BY KEEN KING NOOB SHEESHA-ING
OUR HERO HAS FALLEN.. AFTER LONG ISLAND.. 2 CUPS =.=
STILL FUCKED UP.. SOMEMORE GO DRINK CARLSBERG
PANDA (IN RED / THE BDAY BOY) ... WASN'T DRUNK.. HE WAS BORED OF KEEN KING NOOB-NESS
'
AND THIRDLY AS ALWAYS..
'ITS ME AND HER.. MY LIFE.. MY HOPES.. MY DREAMS.. MY LOVE..





AND SINCE TODAY THE SPOTLIGHT IS ON MY BROTHER.. I'LL GIVE HIM HIS PRIVATE SPACE HERE.. LOL..
NOW.. I PRESENT TO YOU...
THE LEGENDARY...
...................KUNG FU PANDA !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
.........................................................................WITH A CLOWN.. XD





YOU ARE MY SUN THAT SHINES A PATH IN MY LIFE...


LASTLY.. A VIDEO OF THE BDAY BOY.. FORCING HIM TO DOWN AK-47...
........................DOUBLE...
.............................TRIPLE...
................................FOUR-PLE...
....................................I DONT KNOW HOW MANY DOSE... MUAHAHAHHA...

My love, my heart, my soul is my gift to you
Your smile, your love is the only reward I would want

Precious, like a gem made by angels to shine forever
Releasing the passion inside me that burns for you
Intertwining our destinies, so that we two soul mates
Now and forever, can live out our hopes and dreams
Creating our own bond of life, to overcome the challenges
Explore the mysteries, and to enjoy life as it should be
Sharing the peace and love, that everyone looks for
So in the end I want nothing, because I have everything I need

What happenned that day in AC.. under the rain..
The day inspired me.. U all out there better enjoy this..
bcoz it MADE ME SICK.. >.< (stupid rain)

I was waiting for you last night
under a broken street light
at least that light will be fixed
unlike my heart..
You're the one and only,
whom can heal my heart and make it perfect..

I keep her picture
So whenever I'm lonely
I can hug the picture to sleep..

Sometimes if you love someone so much,
it will actually hurt more.
Every minute spent with her
comes with an hour of missing her.

Just when you thought
everything would be perfect,
everything falls apart.

I need guidance to get through the day
and a blade to get through the night.

Relationships are like crystals,
you don't realize how much you love it
until it breaks..

It's amazing how someone
----can break your heart,
but you still love them,
----with all the little pieces.

This is a post after so long.. sry for the absence again..

: Katherine :

I have tried to find the words
To tell you how I feel
The words that will convince you
That what I feel is real

I know that you’ve been hurt by love
And I’ve been wounded too
But together we can heal the scars
Of loves which made us blue

I had spent some time avoiding love
With its anguish and its pain
But since the moment I first saw you
I’ve learned to love again

If you could only see with my eyes
The beauty you would behold
And with my heart you’d really know
The love of which I’ve told

I know you feel the same as I
When in your arms I lie
I can feel the love that’s in your heart
And I’m yours until I die

: Katherine :

Sorry for the absence..
//Valentine post will be up soon.. //
here on this post

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Valentines.. was a DISASTER.. bloody bastard..

plan everything done.. got the pent house.. dinner reservation. fireworks.

JUST THE FUKING CAR AND DRIVER.. PUKIMA..

zzz

sryy.. ^^ im a nice guy...

so anyway. change of plans..

went with evaline and why keat.. on a double date..

yes.. they.. dating. cute couple though.. show u pic later. lol

then went to mont kiara..

thought it was kinda time to ask them to be our valentine..

rannn all the way to the cake shop.. order 2 cup cakes with flowers on it..

picture later la.

then.. knelled down.. weeeeeeee...

"Will you be my Valentine baby ? "

stunned.. kissed.. " Yes.. "

thats all..

My heart's Content..

Love cant be found through looks
Like the romance you read in books;
No matter how far away we are
Baby we have to try really hard;
I will keep holding on tight
For it seems to be my only right;
We should stay together... Forever
Will I break your heart... Never;
Sweetheart we will be together
No matter how bad we show our anger;
You got me trippin' over you
Every time you say "I love you"
I love you with all my heart because Your My Everything...

Our Conversation For Yesterday..
After Thinking long.. long.. long...
I've come to realise..
Sometimes baby..
We should try..
It might not be as good as expected..
It might not be as good as stories..
But it would be as good as fairy tales..
Its Possible..
For...
" Once in a while,
in the middle of an ordinary life,
love gives us a fairy tale "

Lonely Night Here Without You..

When I look at the moon.
i hope you're looking too.
because I'm thinking of you
and I'm hoping you're thinking of me.
but one night I dreamt,
I looked up at the moon
and you appeared behind me
wraped your arms around me
and whispered in my ear "I love you"

the nights we stayed up talking are days I'll never forget
the days we screwed around drinking are the days I'll always remember
but the days and nights we layed there and held each other are the days I cherish.

ATTENTION..

WE ARE NOT TOGETHER..... YET....
SO.. PLEASE DONT TALK ABOUT IT...
ITS REALLY HARD FOR ME... TQ..
THOSE WHOM READ THIS BLOG ARE NORMALLY CLOSE TO ME..
SO TRY TO TELL UR FRIENDS TO SHUT IT.. TQ..
IF THEY ASK WHY.. GIVE THEM A PUNCH =.=

THIS IS MY DREAM THAT I DREAMT OF HER...

She and I upon a hilltop,
She in my arms,
And I standing in the light.
I stared at her face,
And she looked,
With downcast eyes,
Past me into the light.
“Let my eyes take yours,”I asked,In silence,
“So you might see me.”
She breathed in,
Her eyes,
Rising to mine,
Blushing,
she could see me.
Her dress rose again,
I whispered Kate,
And stood her up
Eyes transfixed,
with no minds to the world.
Only You.. and me..

And Today.. All I Wanted To Do..
Is to lay in bed with her..
She.. sleeping in my arms..
Both our mind connected..
As I look at her Angelic Face..
All I want is her Love..
All I wanna know is..
Why dont she just fall for me..

I Miss You Baby..

This is a poem For..
My baby..
=: Katherine Lim Seok Yan..























Baby.. I'm so far away from you..
You whom stole my heart,
Here to there seems like ten thousand miles,
and now i've got to walk ten thousand miles from home,
to steal my heart back from you.
this never would have happened if i hadn't gotten so attached.
and i know that every moment i'll wish for your touch.
i'll miss you forever and always,
like every time i said before.
and maybe you won't think of me much,
but i'll keep my memories;
leave you to yours.
i've got to understand that we can't be,
and i was never truly yours.

as i press my fingers to your empty pictures,
i can feel my pulse;
like i felt every time i pressed my hands to your skin.
and it begins to fade away with every beat,
beneath this frozen frame.

and i can keep my pride,
in knowing that i was strong enough to love for a hundred years,
or at least until i'm gone.
honestly, i don't think i'll ever live that long.
i don't believe in eternity,
though we seemed to stand forever;
because i never really believed in God.
but i always believed in you.

I missed you Dearly..
To Those Whom Don'd Understand How I Feel..
Not all scars show,
not all wounds heal,
Sometimes you can't always see,
The pain someone feel..