The Sweetest thing..

These two things really talk about the love life that has passed.. please. Enjoy..

The Song..

PAST
You’re in my arms
And all the world is calm
The music playing on for only two
So close together
And when I’m with you
So close to feeling alive
A life goes by
Romantic dreams will stop
So I bid my goodbye and never knew
So close was waiting, waiting here with you
And now forever I know
All that I wanted to hold you
So close
So close to reaching that famous happy end
Almost believing this was not pretend
And now you’re beside me and look how far we’ve come
So far... we are... so close

NOW
How could I face the faceless days
If I should lose you now?
So close
So close
And still so far..

THINKING BACK.. AND NOW..
The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before
I know you don't think that I am trying
I know Im already.. HURT down To the Core

I always swore to you i'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may of failed
But I have loved you from the start

But hold your breathe..
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Your impossible to find

My Heart's Message..
This is not what I intended..
I really wanted you to be a part of me..
But I know that i've been a loser..
I've Never thought I'd Live Without you here..
I just know I LOVE YOU..
Nothing can change that..
Time seems too weak to Erase this feelings..
Never have I thought I'd miss you as much as i do NOW..

LASTLY..
For now..
I Miss You,
More and More..
Each day..
More Than Yesterday..
Less Than Tomorrow..

~ Jay..

Flirtish

Today.. ntg much can be said.. same old stoning in the house.. came back from school.. wen to the pool saw Francior.. and his girlfriend ~~ and the gf's brother. lol they were.. kissing.. kissing.. and kissing.. the whole time kissing.. when we sitting in towerblock.. kissing.. come down by lift.. kissing.. bring them to bangsar.. kissing.. De Haven kissing.. ARGH >.< why cant i kiss ?? lol.. anyway. i already know the answer. haha.. ok.. this is stupid. ppl say it can release things.. stuff. its nt really working. lol. mayb coz ppl doint know about it.. lol .. but i dunn wanna let ppl know. so ? how ?
in De Haven.. cystal and wen jun came. crystal know sheesha comin so she cancelled her.. "go early to tuition plan" ( yes !! temptation plan SUCCESS >.< ) so she had a few puff then she go.. after tat.. i went after around 25 mins.. was late for tuition. told teacher my fren was sick .. nice excuse ? lol .. after tat.. come back.. now in my house.. stoning as usual and writing this post For Me Myself and I.. lol.. tata ^^

!st Day of Life

Reading people's blog.. From friends.. all of them said.. blogging can release your Pressure.. or wtv inside.. Though i'm nt really planning to spill all my personal life here. but.. yeah.. just wanna try it out and if it does work.. i'll think about it ^^
Today is the 1st day. 1st breath of this blog. so.. dont expect much..
This blog is 1 day younger than me so to speak.. so.. lets see how it goes..
Yesterday.. went out with friends.. went to watch... tat CROC movie.. its was.. somehow.. bored.. and short.. BUT FULLLLL OF SUSPENS AND BLOOOD >.< lol but it was kinda shocking each time tat 6 m long corc come and bite someone off. haha..
Its been almost 2 week now. ( if those whom are close. You would understand ) life is somehow.. short.. and long. i wish it would end now. after THAT incident. dont really have much will/reason to live. though this may sound stupid but i've gone through this and its very very LONG.. last one took 4 years just to get my mind of her. This is really tiring.. After i've put my heart to it.. and *puff* its gone.. I REALLY DO LOVE HER !!! but what can i do ? or.. What should i do ? wanna few choices ?
1 . Shot myself in the head and get over with it ?
2 . Go for another try when she said its impossible ?
3 . Stone around and wait till she turns back ? ( almost impossible for her )
4 . Just give up and go look for one whom i can love ?
5 . Just give up and go back to what took my 2.5 years to retire from ?
6 . Give up girls..
Still dont know.. anyone ? pls help..