S.Ting

Once there was a man who had an addiction.
Once there was a girl embroiled in complication.
Once there was a place in which he was first struck.
Once there was a guy, happy, who couldn't believe his luck.

Once they went out drinking, and had a lovely date.
Once alone together, she surrendered to her fate.
Once he said "I like you" and she liked him too.
Once they had a connection, when one and one made two.

Now they are both confused, and needed to be alone.
Now she has found space, in a place called home.
Now he has a fountain of tears where once there was a heart.
Now she has decided that they really have to part.

Now that she has nothing, she feels she is complete.
Now that he can't smile again, his heart weighs down his feet.
Now he thinks about her, all the memories locked away.
Now he tries so hard to forget the happy laughing days.

Will she still worry about him? or find a new man?
Will he ever win the girl he loves in the end?
Will it really be over? Can she get on with her life?
Will they ever be able to overcome their strife?

All he could do is envy the laughter they once shared.
All he could feel is regret for the times he made her mad.
All they could feel is the heartbreak and the pain.
All it really matters is if that she would try it again.

Every question he wants to ask
Every question is whether they would last
Every question of his was led by another
Every question is for her to be his lover

He wants to prove he is sincere
He wants to show she is to him, so dear
He wants her to know there can be conditions
He wants her to only give a confession

She wants to now place herself first.
She wants to be lonely rather than to be imprisoned, at worst.
She wants to be independant, to take care of herself.
She wants to have time alone, to remember oneself.

If she really is hurting him, she said she'd let him go.
If she understood his feelings, she would then know it's not so.
If she just gave him the choices , and if he knew what to do.
If they both work together, wouldn't they pull through

But time has taken prisoners, their lives are now entwined.
But even if they never meet again, the past is not left behind.
But can he start all over? Just forget her and move on?
But even if he can, will she be glad with what she's won?

Is that really what he wants, to never see her smiling face again?
Will it make him happy, will he live on without pain?
Will he be thinking of her, is he too proud to cry?
Will it wrench his heart in two if he sees her kiss another guy?

And can she understand, and not put him in the friendzone.
For it is far too much to bear, for not letting his feelings ever known.
And he wants her in his life, and wouldn't mind taking it slow.
She told him she likes him, but she still needs it to grow.

If only she told him to live with patience, to give her time to heal.
The past can't be changed but has left a scar so real.
Before anything happens, before everything changes,
Before we regret any decisions.

For we don't know when things, that now of what we see.
Our present happiness, will just turn to be only memories.
We don't choose who we can love, and feelings don't really die.
You can find it in your heart again, I love you, so please try..

Birthday Curse

Today is my Birthday
so today i shall ask
for today is the day
on whether we will last.

Just how to make you mine
as i don't have a clue
so tell me where to find
the key, to you.

For days and many nights
I sat, to think
and found you are my light
which makes my heart sink.

I want you to be true
so I'll cancel my condition
I'll even promise your request
so may i have a confession ?

So free me love
prove our love is true
so tell me love
Do You Love Me Too .

I don't know how else to put this.
It's taking me so long to do this.
I'm fading away and I can't see straight.

My muscles feel its stuck there,
My body's curled in a U-shape.
I put on my best, but I'm still afraid.

Propped up by lies and promises.
Saving my place as life forgets.
Maybe it's time I saw the world.

I guess I'm only here for a while.
And patience is not my style,
And I'm so tired that I got to go.

Where am I supposed to hide now?
What am I supposed to do?
Did you really think I wouldn't see this through?

Tell me I should stick around for you.
Tell me I can have it all.
Or I'll be too tired to care and I have to go.

I get to go heaven for a few days.
For I'm leaving there in a few ways.
They throw me a bone just to pick me dry.

I'm following her not directions.
I crawl up inside for protection.
I'm told what to do and I don't know why.

I'm over-existing in her life now.
I'm over the myths and promises now.
I don't really mind if now..
I just fade away..

Deep.. but Meaningless

Deep and Meaningless is all i can ever say..

Tired of getting my heart broken over and over again..
- I'll help you and go through it with you.....

Lets just say I believe if a guy do like a girl.. He'd do anything to make it happen..
- Anything would not just be what I'd do for you...

Do you know we can manipulate ourselves to love someone..
So how can we say, I'm falling for you.
Its stupid
- Tag me as stupid then.. as I've already fallen for you.....

The kiss.. Sorry i started it..
- Thank you.. for that kiss.. that moment.. that time frame......

I miss you...
- I miss you even more......

I like you too...
- I love you.......

- Whats on your mind......
You...
- What about me ?
Just you... =)

- I'm afraid to lose you.....
We have time =)

I wanna hug you to sleep.. baby..
- I wanna hug you to sleep every night and wake up seeing you everyday of my life..

- I'll have to wait till your exams is over ?
It'll be worth the wait darling..

Let me go
- I want you even more

Move on
- To whom who is more special than you ?

It's not gonna happen
- Never say Never....

You're just someone.. Never Knew I Needed..

I'm afraid, in the future..
I can’t talk to you anymore,
it’s not that I am mad at you,
it’s just that when I talk to you
I realize how much I love you
and when I realize how much I love you,
I realize I can’t have you
and that makes me
love you even more.

Sometimes..
I don’t miss her,
I just miss who she was few hours ago..
But no matter what..
I promised her that I would be there for her..
and i intend to keep that promise..

What I am to You.

I dont want to give you anything
I dont even know what can i give you
What do you want..
What do you really want from me ?
I don’t have the courage to think of you
you don’t have the heart to meet with me
so where can I go?
Even if I appear,
You would probably not be free anyway,
Besides, I might even result to you losing face
You were my Treasure,
I am your Garbage,
Even if I went missing, you would probably won't even notice
These tears are counted a blessing,
that I could tear for you,
But what I didn't understand
Why did you even stop to listen to me barking.
If I don't go now,
I might have this life,
But will not be able to enjoy it,
I am probably not close enough to make an impact,
My tears might not even mean anything,
I don't even have the guts to cry to you myself.
Now, I don't mind loneliness,
At least it is much easier than being in love with you.
So take my leaving as a blessing I give to you.

Which Road Do I Pick ?

I want to go back to the past..
I know I'm in the wrong..
Please forgive me..
Please let me make it up to you..
Dont reject me..
Dont shake your head..
I've now come to a cross road..
How many problems can one heart take..
Give me time..
Just a little bit..
I want to do everything..
and anything...
For you..
Naomi..